The Wall

Updated: Jan 1, 2019

Do you ever feel like you have hit the proverbial brick wall? Like your life just seems to be at a standstill? Do you feel stuck? Bored and/or exhausted? Or may be you feel overwhelmed with no escape? Is anxiety, fear or depression keeping you rooted in the same place? Do you feel like things will never change?

I hit that brick wall head-first for the umpteenth time this week. Two weeks straight on very little sleep, a boss who constantly belittles me and complains that I'm not doing enough when I can barely handle what I'm given, sick children, expensive medical bills, a bad dating experience, and several unexpected expenses have caused me to feel like I can no longer move forward. I'm stuck and I very much dislike it. Being stuck makes me feel like I'm failing. Again. At everything.

I am bone-tired. Weary, but I want my life to keep moving forward and am willing to do what it takes to get there. Out of this gray area and beyond the wall that's keeping me stuck in this place with few friends, no social life, and no escape from the challenges of single parenthood. I don't like being in a stagnant place. I become impatient. I try to make things happen and I try to take control.

As I've learned, absolutely nothing good can happen when I take control. I'm a terrible pilot. I must look to the Lord for guidance. I have to remember to wait patiently at the wall and to give Him control over every situation that drove me there in the first place. Because without Him in control, I surely will fail and I will never find rest. I'll just keep banging my head against the cold, hard brick.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 11:28-30, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." The Lord does not want me to run myself ragged or into a wall. He wants to take my burdens in order to keep my life moving forward in the direction of His purpose.

Sometimes He allows me to run into that brick wall a few times so I will have no choice but to turn around and face Him. To ask Him for help. To give everything to Him. To rely upon His gentleness and grace. It's an eye-opening lesson, yet He's always there, patiently waiting for me to come to Him.

So whatever burdens you may have, lay them at His feet. He can handle them all. Give Him control and rely upon his help. He will knock down every wall standing between you and fulfilling His purpose for you life.

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